才三个星期

就开始疲累了

真的累了

累的苦不堪言

压力大的透不过气来

没了宣泄的方法

心灵的慰籍

如何才好

谁能告诉我,该要怎么办....

school life started 2 weeks ago...
and i was back to smktc...
i hoped that since the first day i stepped into smksbs...
smktc is more suitable for me...
but it doesnt mean smksbs is bad,just im feeling that i dont like to stay there...

the first feeling when i stepped into smktc was,"wow, it great"...LOL
i am really happy that can back to smktc...really...
i was in 4S3 in the first week,with being ketua tingkatan...
and i realize thats not easy that being ketuua tingkatan...
fortunately, i changed to 4S1 in the second week...

4S1 means what?
all nerds???
and is it i am going to be nerd also??
i have to change my study attitude to catch up all those nerds??
sorry for calling u guys nerd...LOL
u guys really pro in study...
but i have to face the truth.....
study hard to catch up them...

and i heard a good news from ben jiie on tues..
i can wear my blue shirt back without 3 months being a trainee...

is a new begining for me.
is a challenging year for me.
have to work hard for it!!!

I was chilling before I gt result....
Because I was scared...

I was chilling after I gt result....
Because I was dissapointed...

3 years ago,I chose to cry in the public...
I didnt know how to control my emotion...

But now,I didnt cry....
I chose to endure....
In that moment, I felt hopeless....
Dont know what to do...

Everyone is better than me...
and now,I had to admit,I AM THE LOSER

一件又一件事的发生

相似在平静的湖面丢下了一颗石头

泛起了涟漪

本来

一切都觉得理所当然

然而

事情发生后

才懂得珍惜...

窗
窗边一张藤椅
让我能舒适地
看着黑夜

夜晚的天空
好似一件黑色绒毛大衣
满天繁星,璀璨夺目
还有一轮
不输太阳刺眼的银月

夜
最合人意
朦胧的夜空
寻觅躲藏的星宇

月
中秋不可缺乏的元素
一旦成了乡愁的化身
变得叫人不认看了

星
是否听得到人的渴求
一闪一闪
代表的是同意还是反对

窗
习惯画一幅景色给我
有时觉得与一扇窗为伍的自己很可笑
却不知不觉上瘾了
离不开
因为在寂寞时
只有它陪伴着我

阳光明媚，晴天白云
窗外，好多人在笑着
窗外，好多人结伴着
我且让看书做借口
不想什么是寂寞……

子曰文言，我像是在对话
可孔孟都没理睬我
我只是一个人，
喝着一杯加了好多糖的咖啡
看着书，想着谁？

想到她
咖啡杯加了再多的糖
可再怎么甜，都觉得苦

再次喝着那慌乱时候
就会不停搅拌的咖啡
窗打开了
门铃也响了
站在门外的是虚假的你
照射着我的是讽刺
喝着的咖啡
我尝到了寂寞

闷到爆!